Calling It Off
What were they to each other now?
They were living in separate states for the forseeable future. Yet, they would still talk on the phone. He still wanted her to wear his ring.
It was all so confusing.
She felt like she couldn't really move on, if they hadn't really called things off. But, she couldn't just wait around and see if they could work things out.
She needed to know.
She missed him.
And so, she decided that she would make him an offer: she would move back, if only he wanted to make it work. She would quit her job and be there this weekend. She still had her job waiting for her in New York, as the school year hadn't started there yet and she hadn't officially resigned.
And so, she called him.
"Do you want us to work? Do you want us to be together?"
They talked and talked. Talked in circles, trying to figure it all out.
She stared down at the pink and white patterns on the blue chair that she sat on, seeing them swirling through her tears.
He didn't want her to give up her life down there, to move back where she would be miserable. And he wasn't going to move down there with her. So, where did that leave them?
"I guess this is it," she whispered. "We're really over. We're not getting married."
"Don't say that! You don't know what is going to happen!" he said with a lot more passion than she expected from him.
But, she couldn't take this. It didn't make sense. If he didn't want her there and didn't want to be here with her, they were over. She had to be strong enough to admit it.
"We're over. I'm taking off the ring."
He tried to protest for several minutes, but eventually, he gave in, too. They both knew the truth, knew they had been over for a long time.
All this phone call was doing was finally putting an end to the way they had been torturing each other and themselves.
She hung up the phone, slipped the ring off her finger, and walked to her dresser to put it away. She sat back down, rubbing her thumb over her now-empty finger, trying to convince herself that she had done the right thing.
If you missed any of the story of my past, where yes, I talk about myself in the third person, you can check out these links to get caught up:
10 Days After the Hurricane
Was It a Big Mistake?
A Romance Grows
And Then He Left Her
She Moves for Him
The Waiting Game
The Engagement
The Year It All Goes Wrong
The Break
The Worst Thing She Ever Did
Limbo
We She Next Sees Him
They were living in separate states for the forseeable future. Yet, they would still talk on the phone. He still wanted her to wear his ring.
It was all so confusing.
She felt like she couldn't really move on, if they hadn't really called things off. But, she couldn't just wait around and see if they could work things out.
She needed to know.
She missed him.
And so, she decided that she would make him an offer: she would move back, if only he wanted to make it work. She would quit her job and be there this weekend. She still had her job waiting for her in New York, as the school year hadn't started there yet and she hadn't officially resigned.
And so, she called him.
"Do you want us to work? Do you want us to be together?"
They talked and talked. Talked in circles, trying to figure it all out.
She stared down at the pink and white patterns on the blue chair that she sat on, seeing them swirling through her tears.
He didn't want her to give up her life down there, to move back where she would be miserable. And he wasn't going to move down there with her. So, where did that leave them?
"I guess this is it," she whispered. "We're really over. We're not getting married."
"Don't say that! You don't know what is going to happen!" he said with a lot more passion than she expected from him.
But, she couldn't take this. It didn't make sense. If he didn't want her there and didn't want to be here with her, they were over. She had to be strong enough to admit it.
"We're over. I'm taking off the ring."
He tried to protest for several minutes, but eventually, he gave in, too. They both knew the truth, knew they had been over for a long time.
All this phone call was doing was finally putting an end to the way they had been torturing each other and themselves.
She hung up the phone, slipped the ring off her finger, and walked to her dresser to put it away. She sat back down, rubbing her thumb over her now-empty finger, trying to convince herself that she had done the right thing.
If you missed any of the story of my past, where yes, I talk about myself in the third person, you can check out these links to get caught up:
10 Days After the Hurricane
Was It a Big Mistake?
A Romance Grows
And Then He Left Her
She Moves for Him
The Waiting Game
The Engagement
The Year It All Goes Wrong
The Break
The Worst Thing She Ever Did
Limbo
We She Next Sees Him
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posted by Shell at
7:00 AM
50 Comments:
Finally some closure both hearts needed to start the healing.
Is this really over? Or will she go back.... Can't wait to read the next move.
Change can be hard at times. This is a huge one. Something had to give. Hugs.
ah, you are killing me here.. I want to know what happens.... !
Is this the end? Closure is important.
Ooooo intriguing! But is it really over now???
It sounds like he was afraid to admit that things weren't going to work out. I'm glad you stayed strong.
Waaaaah She took off the ring. They're over. Kaput. That's it. LOL This kind of like the Bible. We know how it's going to end. =)
~Mimi
Finding your head and your heart in conflict can be very tough to resolve. I know.
I think she did the right thing! :)
Such a hard call to make, but it had to be done.
Even when you know it's over, taking the step to make if final is often the hardest part, but it really does close the door.
I'm a bit mad at him.
How did you feel?? Did you feel relief at all? I just posted about my break up with my boyfriend (college) today. I was sad, but at the same time, also felt relieved.
That empty finger feeling is horrible. You get so used to the weight of the ring.
Glad she made the call.
Ughhhhhhh. Talking in circles is hard but taking off the ring is even harder. Poor girl!
Taking off the ring? Powerful and sad.
She sounds like a strong lady.
I sure hope there is another story following this one....you are great at this
Is this REALLY the end to them? Will the ring ever go back on that finger? :)
Why is it that often times the right decisions are also the hardest ones?
It must have hurt but it sounds like it was definitely the right move!
I don't like sad endings but I'm glad she found closure!
Love your writing. Writing about yourself in the third person is working great! This situation just happened to my best friend. It hurts but is defo better in the long run!
I am proud to know someone so strong. I can only imagine how hard that must have been. I can only speak to my own "break-ups" and they were never as far along as what was the situation here. And that was rough for me. This must have been something.
I admire you for following your heart...the only thing harder than breaking off an engagement is breaking off a marriage.
Can't wait for the next story...
It's over? I think she needs to do what makes her happy and obviously moving for him wasn't it.
Can't wait if it's really OVER.
This sounds like what Kellys going through. She's so torn and he keeps saying "I miss you but we will see what happens"
She's been hanging on for over 2 years now....maybe I will ask her to read your story?
I think she is full of strength she didn't know she had before. A clearly wise, if painful, decision!
It takes such strength and courage to do what you know must be done.
Closure is always so bittersweet!
Doing what you know you have to do, but don't want to do is always SO hard.
More, more, more!
Still annoyed with him, I can't help it.
I'm sure that taking such a big step must've been extremely difficult. I'm glad you did.
He really just wanted you to be his but he didn't want to do the work to keep you. That's what I'm getting here...I think.
I mean, "I don't want you to give up what you have down there..."
Hello, clearly he doesn't want you back.
BUT then he freaks, "Don't say that!"
Weird.
NOOOOOOO!!! You can't end it there....what happens next? Does he call her back and tell her he's an idiot for not fighting hard enough for her?!
All I can say is that you are a very strong, courageous person!
the story feels so familiar to anyone that has gone through a break up but then it doesn't...looking at it with other eyes, with someone else's hurt.
It's a story that you are doing a good job telling...HUGS
I have had a moment like this in my life (with a man before my husband), and I remember feeling ENORMOUS RELIEF when hanging up that phone.
I was looking forward to the next installment of this! Good for you for making a touch decision. Funny how the right thing to do rarely seems to be the easy thing to do.
Oh so feels like the right choice!! Once again wonderful to read
I'm so glad that we made it to this point where you get to be free to move on. You did the right thing Shell!
Oh wow.I'm sad that it's over.I can feel the pain that you went through. I've had those tears before.
So hard to listen to your head when your heart is screaming at you ...
OOh, I'm so intrigued. I need to go back and read the rest! Lovin' your writing though!
No no no! Put the ring back on right now!
I love your writing, Shell.
This story has been so heartbreaking and true. Is there a novel here?
I gave the ultimatum to my ex (who was also french) and he called my bluff - we broke up. But it was lucky because then I married my total Mr Right.
So sad, yet just closer steps bringing you to the life you lead now. Loved every bit of your story. I can't wait for more.
Wow hun that is so moving and talk about hard. Girl your so brave the I could ever be, I love you share these.
Sniffle, sniffle. Now what's she gonna do?
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