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Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Pour Your Heart Out: The Hardest Glass to Pour

Yes, you are in the right place for Pour Your Heart Out! In fact, my most personal ever... Just a new look!

Thank you so much to Jess @ The Frilly Coconut for coming up with this fabulous design! I hope you like it because it will be sticking around for a long time.

The Frilly Coconut

If you are looking for a new design, I highly recommend that you check out her design site! Jess is so easy to work with- she really wants you to love your design. You can see her portfolio and her very reasonable prices if you click her cute button. She does both blogger and wordpress designs. She just opened her design list again- so hurry and get on it!

If you need more info about Pour Your Heart Out, see THIS post.

But, really, it's anything that YOU consider pouring your heart out.

Be sure to check out some of the links- you will find some amazing stories out there.
Again, just a brief reminder that everyone linking is pouring their hearts out and we should all be respectful in our comments. ;)


I've mentioned many times on here the struggles that my middle son, Bear,  has.  You can click on the "Bear" label at the bottom of this post if you want to read more about him, as this post will not go into his struggles. This is something else.

I'm always pretty vague and say something like "delays due to a medical issue." And I leave it at that.

The biggest reason is that we are involved in a lawsuit with the person who is responsible for his illness. And trust me, this is not a case of wanting to point the blame at someone. I am not a sue-happy person. There was gross negligence(is that what it's called when someone is a big fat liar and their lie results in a child almost dying?). But, I never really felt comfortable discussing it because we have not gone to court yet and so I worried about putting anything out there that could somehow come back to bite me.

I'm not really sure how it could. Yet, still, I will not put all the details out there now because of this. But, I will tell you that because of this, we HAD to move last year and my husband could no longer work for the company he was working for because he couldn't stand to look at his boss. And I had the overwhelming urge to charge into his office and punch said boss in his face. Even though I'm really not a violent person. And his ex-boss outweighs me by a good 200 pounds or so. Give or take.

And that I felt the need to get rid of the majority of our furniture, most of the boys' toys and a variety of other things. Anything that I wasn't sure that I could clean well enough to feel okay about it. So, it meant that when we moved last fall, we were starting out with almost nothing.

The details... I really can't discuss still. Or feel like I should. I'm sure you can draw some conclusions from all this, which I will neither confirm nor deny, so let's not go there. But, we can talk about Bear.

Last week, I noticed that there is actually an awareness week for what my son has. And I thought seriously about writing about it then. But, I needed time. This is not the sort of post that you just toss off really quickly and mindlessly hit the "publish" button.

What my Bear lives with is lead poisoning. He is the only one of my children who does. My other two are not affected.

Lead poisoning can be very serious. Fatal, even. It's not a joke or something to be taken lightly. And even if you are like me and religiously scan the recalled toy lists to check to make sure that none of your child's toys contains any lead... you can encounter it in other places.

Lead is very sweet. And little children can actually become addicted to it.

The effects can be serious: decreased bone and muscle growth; poor muscle coordination; damage to nervous system, kidneys, and hearing; developmental delays, and seizures and unconsciousness.

It can lead to potentially permanent learning and behavior disorders. Aggression, too. Autistic and SPD(sensory processing disorder) are labels that were considered for my son before we knew about the lead poisoning. Because he displayed many of the same characteristics.

Since he's been away from the sources of lead for over a year now, Bear's lead levels have dropped. When you get tested, you want your levels to be below 10µg/dL. Though, there are no "normal" lead levels: it should be at zero. But, once you have a high lead level reading, what you want is under 10. His started at 36 and are now down to 15. Still high, but dropping.

Removing him from the lead and being sure he has a good diet are all we can do.

No one can really tell us how long it will take for his levels to drop. Or how many of the effects will be permanent and which will fade as his levels drop.

We don't know.

Next to being told that the effects will definitely be permanent and that he will never improve, telling us that we don't know has got to be one of the most frustrating things ever.

I'm not writing this because I expect anyone to give me any answers- we've spoken to every doctor/specialist that we can about this. And, yes, I know how to google just as well as the next person.

I'm merely writing this as a mom, who is heartbroken. Who still can't think about this without crying. Who thought that she was being careful and never would have guessed how her child would be hurt.

A mom who knew something was off and kept insisting on evaluations and tests until she got an answer. Who could have lost her son if she hadn't pushed for these things.

A mom whose family had to start all over with nothing in order to help her son. A mom who therefore might not have the money to do really basic things now because of it, but a mom who thinks it was worth it to see the improvement in her son over the past year.

Also a mommy blogger who wants to kick someone when they call her a sellout for doing product reviews when it gives her kids things that they couldn't otherwise have because of what her family has gone through to help her son. Parents make sacrifices for their children, but it's hard when children have to make sacrifices, too.

A mom who fights for her son when others see him as different. Because not many people have a clue about the effects that lead poisoning can have and they just don't understand.

A mom who wants everyone to be able to see her son as the sweet, loving boy that he is.

A mom who prays for God to heal her son.

A mom whose heart breaks when she thinks of what could have happened. What might still lay ahead.

You just never know. Go hug your babies. And please know that there are some questions that I simply cannot answer- so if you ask them in the comments, I may not be able to respond. Or even if I can, I simply might not be up for it. Thank you for understanding that.

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Blogger Unknown said...

I love the new design! It looks fabulous! I'm so sorry to hear about Bear's illness. He's blessed to have a mommy who knew to keep pushing for those answers. Because of you, he's getting better. I will be keeping his healing in my prayers!

November 3, 2010 at 7:22 AM  
Blogger Rebecca said...

That is such a crap hand to deal with...I'm so sorry that happened to Bear. No one deserves that and no one deserves to be lied to. I would be enraged.

Also, you're not a sellout...it's your blog...do with it what you wish.

November 3, 2010 at 7:24 AM  
Blogger Sorta Southern Single Mom said...

Oh Shell...

First off... Love the new look... look at you keeping it quiet. :)

Now that that's out of the way...
You've given me shivers and for what it's worth, I'd like to drive on up to wherever that person is and punch him for you! But good for you and your husband! You are his champions and it sounds as though you wouldn't stop until you got your answers and you've made choices and sacrifices... what a lucky little boy your Bear is, and all your boys are, to have you for their Mamma!

Your family has my continued prayers.

November 3, 2010 at 7:25 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

{Hugs} Mama. I'm so sorry. Know that you have friends who are here for you if/when you need them. {Hugs}

November 3, 2010 at 7:41 AM  
Blogger Melissa Haak said...

Good for you for championing for your children whatever form that may take! I will be praying for you and your little Bear and for continued improvement!

November 3, 2010 at 7:45 AM  
Blogger Amethystmoon said...

I'm so choked up! i had no idea how severe lead poisoning is, and I'm crying at the thought of you, such a wonderful person, having to deal with this shit! Thank you for sharing this very difficult post.

November 3, 2010 at 7:45 AM  
Blogger The Mommyologist said...

Love you honey...and I already thought you were amazing, but even more so now for having the courage to share Bear's story. I still cannot believe how much you've been through.

And you are NOT a sellout!! You have to do what is right for YOU and YOUR family...bottom line.

November 3, 2010 at 7:48 AM  
Blogger The Mommyologist said...

Oh yeah, and on a lighter note...the new design looks awesome!! Love it!

November 3, 2010 at 7:48 AM  
Blogger BNM said...

so sorry shell ((hugs)) my prayers are with u and ur family

November 3, 2010 at 7:48 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

First, I love your new design.

Second, I cannot comment on this post as a mom--but rather as a child that has watched her mom fight for the medical awareness and attention I have needed and still need in the past. And while I haven't told my mom thank you, she knows I am so grateful. But I want to thank you Shell. Thank you for doing everything you can to make things "better". Coming from the kid, I know how important that is

November 3, 2010 at 7:56 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I have dealt with drs who didn't give answers, didn't seek them - and so I did - until I finally got them. I know this sounds like a Palin thing - but that Mama Grizzly is what moms like us are - and need to be. I spent 5 years looking for what was wrong with one son - and getting blown off. Once he was diagnosed, it took him 2+ years to rebuild his strength. One had a learning disorder - but I knew something was not right - and I did not give up. Yes - lots of tears, frustration - all powered by this mama-grizzly kind of love and determination!

You are in my prayers (really!). I'll stand with you on that healing! My heart goes out to you because I know what my heart has felt like when my kids suffer!

November 3, 2010 at 7:58 AM  
Blogger Hyacynth said...

Big hugs, mama. I pray he heals and your family finds a little justice.

November 3, 2010 at 8:02 AM  
Blogger Ian said...

I remember we talked about this and good for you for raising awareness and telling everyone what they ought to do every day for their kids - love them more.

That and only cause I am paranoid - be careful until the matter's resolved.

November 3, 2010 at 8:19 AM  
Blogger Oka said...

Love your new decor (stealing your button when I leave).

I want to mention how awesome you and your husband for willing to loose it all for your family and starting new. I know that wasn't easy , especially not knowing about Bear.

I thank God that you still have your boy, and that he has you for his mother.

November 3, 2010 at 8:21 AM  
Blogger Liz said...

First, your new design is fab! Second, so many bloggers do reviews; who is calling you a sell out?

Third, and most importantly, I'm so very sorry to hear all this Shell. I can't imagine having a child with a serious medical issue like this, nor that the problem is really at the fault of another human being. Best of luck as you move through the litigation process.

November 3, 2010 at 8:22 AM  
Blogger Life Without Pink said...

Big hugs to you...I'm so sorry you and your family has to deal with this. But I applaud you for having the courage to talk about it and bring awareness to lead poisoning. I pray that your little Bear gets better...you are a wonderful mother who obviously will do anything for her children.

On a happier note, love the new look!

November 3, 2010 at 8:27 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

OH girl I am furious for you, for Bear, for your hubby. Ya know there are connections in KY that cna hide a body where no one can find it right. Yeah just so ya know.. I gotcha back if ya need it.
Like you I am a mama bear seriously you mess with my kids you have messed with me even if they are 30 and grown I would still kill ya.
Praying for you and Bear and your whole family.
Now as for the reviews tell people to mind their own dang business, you keep on doing the reviews it is your blog..and YOUR decision..Which by the way LOVE the new layout

November 3, 2010 at 8:37 AM  
Blogger Kmama said...

LOVE the new design. I forgot you were getting one! Did you know that the nav bar isn't working??

Even though I already knew all about this, it still made me very upset to read about it again. I'm so sorry you all have had to endure such hardships through this, and that apparently, you are getting shit for doing product reviews. That is ludicrous and infuriates me. What you do is your business, and your business alone. I hope you shared this story because you wanted to (which I believe is the case), and not because you felt like you had to justify why you do product reviews.

November 3, 2010 at 8:39 AM  
Blogger Eternal Lizdom said...

First, I am sad that this was such a hard glass for you to pour- that this was something so hard for you to share. I am sad that you were scared (are scared) of being judged harshly for... well, I can't imagine what for.

You are a great mom. You are the very best mom your boys could have. You are making hard choices- but good and important choices.

I'm sorry you've had to go through chaos and trauma and that Bear has been hurt. But I am so proud of you and your husband for doing what needs to be done.

November 3, 2010 at 8:42 AM  
Blogger MommyLovesStilettos said...

Oh Shell, I'm so sorry :( This made me tear up and I wish i could give you a big hug right now!!

Anyone who called you a sell out is probably just jealous that they don't get to review awesome stuff like you do. Ignore the haters! I know it's easier said than done, but really anyone who feels the need to say something like that is TRASH.


November 3, 2010 at 8:47 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...


I know how difficult this all has been for you. We all hate to see our kids dealing with anything negative and I know the guilt that you had felt, but remember Shell It was NOT your fault.

You are doing everything that you can to help him now. I hope (and pray) his numbers continue to decrease.

Your new design looks fabulous!

November 3, 2010 at 8:48 AM  
Blogger Evonne said...

This is nothing short of scary! My heart is breaking for you.

I agree that it is best to not disclose any details because you never know what could happen. Good for you for pushing to get answers. That's what a good mom does, and you are one.

Also, good job at raising awareness. Not that I want anyone to go through this, but hopefully it helps someone out there.

November 3, 2010 at 9:10 AM  
Blogger Evonne said...

Sorry, I forgot to add that I am totally in love with the new look!

November 3, 2010 at 9:14 AM  
Blogger Heidi said...

So sorry to hear of the health struggles your wee one has had to endure. You're a great mama to pursue all you need to in order to help him in any way you can. I'll be praying for continued improvement for him and peace of mind fo you, friend.


ps-your new design is just fab!

November 3, 2010 at 9:18 AM  
Blogger Steph said...

Oh Shell - this post makes my heart break for you. No mom should have to go through this. Please know, that you are doing your absolute best for him and he couldn't ask for a better mom!

PS - Love the new look!

November 3, 2010 at 9:22 AM  
Blogger Gigi said...

Hi Shell,

First off...Jess did an amazing job on your new design. We talked a lot about your blog when we met at Bloggy Boot Camp. She's fab and I am her biggest fan!

Second..I am sorry that you are going through this with Bear. What a scary situation, as you said, because of the not knowing. I really hope and pray that his levels will continue to fall and that he improves. My son has SPD and if the behaviors are similar, I know how challenging that can be at times.

Third...I am sick and tired of people being called sellouts who do product reviews. Guess what? Whether you do ONE product review or 100, you're no different. You're getting something for your work. Just because one does more reviews or giveaways than another doesn't make her "more' of a sellout. In my opinion, we're all sellouts who do them - myself included - and I DON'T GIVE A CRAP what people think. Blogging takes a lot of time and if you can use some of that $ to help your son or your family (I do the same) - MORE POWER TO YOU. There is nothing wrong with it.

Will I ever win a writing award? probably not. I do still try to hold my blog to a high standard of writing,and review products I would use. My husband is pretty grateful for the little bit of extra money we have and some of the freebies we've gotten. YOU deserve it. Don't let anybody make you feel bad about it.

Ok. Off my soapbox.

November 3, 2010 at 9:43 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

You know I love your new look! It's fabulous!

I am so sorry for what you have had to endure- especially at someone else's responsibility. I cannot imagine the anger you must struggle with, because I'm pretty darn ticked off just hearing about it. I admire your strength in what you have done with your family, and your son (well, all of them) are lucky to have you as their mom.

November 3, 2010 at 9:44 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Oh, and what kind of horrible people are calling you a sellout?? Screw them. They're jealous of the amazing opportunities you have- that's it. It is amazing the world of opportunities that come from blogging. So screw em all.

November 3, 2010 at 9:45 AM  
Blogger JennyMac said...

Sending positive thoughts for you and Bear. And do love the new blog couture you have got going on.

November 3, 2010 at 9:48 AM  
Blogger Julie said...

I love the new look. Maybe if I make devote my page to blogging all the time, I'll create something like that.

Sorry to hear about your situation with your son. I can only hope he improves to the levels he needs to be at :)

November 3, 2010 at 9:48 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Love the new design! And good for you for pushing the doctors and doing what's right for you and your family.

November 3, 2010 at 9:49 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Thanks for sharing Shell. I hope everything works out. My heart was breaking as I was reading this.

On a happier note, I LOVE the new blog design!

November 3, 2010 at 9:57 AM  
Blogger L. Eleana Johnson said...

My heart goes out to you. I'm so sorry that your son is going through this. I pray that things get better really soon. I pray that you experience a miracle that no doctor or expert could have predicted. I pray you find happiness at the times you are feeling the most sadness.

November 3, 2010 at 9:59 AM  
Blogger Aunt Crazy said...

I love the new blog design!

I'm so sorry your son was injured because of someone else's idiocy! Your words are strong and convincing yet I can feel your heartache all at the same time.

To the person who was mean about the reviews...how rude!!!

November 3, 2010 at 10:00 AM  
Blogger Kara @ His, Hers and Ours said...

LOVE the new design! Love it!

As a former paralegal, I saw MANY of sue-happy people...and sadly, many family's with legit cases, such as yours. I think you have made a great decision about not going into specifics, but yet, aren't holding back.

I'm so sorry you are having to deal with all this crap due to someone else's negligence, but happy to hear that Bears levels are dropping.

And, um...screw those that call you a sellout. For real. You have made huge sacrifices for your family, and for someone else to say that is just crap.

November 3, 2010 at 10:23 AM  
Blogger Sara said...

A. I LOVE your new design!!
B. SCREW the people who called you a sell- out for doing product reviews- I look forward to the day someone WANTS me to review their stuff, lol.
c. You and your husband are AMAZING. You did whatever you needed to, in order to remove him from harm. You have sacrificed and put your own needs at the bottom of the list, in order to help your son- and your other sons. YOU are the stuff super mom are made of!! {HUGS}

November 3, 2010 at 10:23 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Wow. I, like some other moms, had no clue the devastating effects of lead poisoning. When it all started to come out, it was shocking and all over the news, but then it just died down... Thank you for posting this and making other mom's more aware. Thank you for pouring your heart out about something very personal! You are such a great mom for making those sacrifices for your children!!

November 3, 2010 at 10:29 AM  
Blogger Steph said...

This is a very brave post.

I think the most vulnerable we, as moms, are is when our children are hurting.

I hope that your legal situation works as it is supposed to...

Shell, I hope that your Bear's health continues to improve and the developmental worries prove to be WRONG! Keep praying.

And now that you've shared this...more prayers can be said for your boy.

November 3, 2010 at 10:38 AM  
Blogger Venassa said...

Oh wow.. what a scary thing to be going through. You and your family are in my thoughts. You really are an amazing mom though for pushing as hard as you did, and giving everything up to help him. Sadly there are probably some mothers who wouldn't have gone as far.

November 3, 2010 at 10:50 AM  
Blogger ~✽Mumsy✽~ said...

Dear Shell,

First of all, I love the new look of your blog..

Secondly, I almost didn't want to link up after reading your post. Your life story/experience is so raw, and tug at my heart..I can feel your emotions and frustration from your post.

Thirdly, you're a great mom who sacrifices for your children, and to find an answer. No other love can beat that!

Finally, Shell, hang in there, and I will pray with you so God can hear your prayer..

November 3, 2010 at 10:50 AM  
Blogger Katina said...

Girrrrrrrrl! I am praying for you! You have every right to be angry! Glad you are channeling your anger correctly by educating others and advocating for your child.

November 3, 2010 at 10:50 AM  
Blogger Venassa said...

Oh ps.. I love you new look. It's amazing. She did a great job.

November 3, 2010 at 10:51 AM  
Blogger Heather said...

You are not a sell out for providing for your kids.

I can't imagine the strength it took to pick up and move. Much less moving without belongings you were used to.

I know it won't cure Bear for justice to be done, but I hope that it is done maybe to give your family a bit of peace, and security.

November 3, 2010 at 11:01 AM  
Blogger Sarah said...

I had no idea!! I'm so sorry this has touched your family-- I can't decide what's worse: that it was someone's fault, or all the "don't knows". So glad you were persistent in advocating for him and that by doing so, you saved his life!

November 3, 2010 at 11:05 AM  
Blogger Ducky said...

Yet another example of why it is so important to not be so quick to judge. One never knows what pieces we have glued together that now make up our building blocks. I see an amazing, dedicated, loving, generous, determined, raw, patient mother who does what she has to do without thinking about it.. you just do it because that is who you are. You do well to ignore the judgements passed, the words whispered the ignorant comments made (of course that doesn't mean that in the small quiet moments they don't still sting). Most often its out of their own insecurity. You shine in a way they wish they did.


November 3, 2010 at 11:19 AM  
Blogger Stasha said...

You are a great mom! To pick up and leave everything and basically start fresh is hard. Very hard.

Who ever called you a sell out for doing reviews obviously doesn't know you that well... There is NOTHING wrong in providing for your family! (I wanna ask who did it so I can verbally kick someone's butt, but I know you won't tell me)

Your family is in my prayers!

Love your new look! It is FABULOUS!

November 3, 2010 at 11:23 AM  
Blogger Renegades said...

From one mother to another my heart breaks for you. I cannot imagine what you are going through.

Hang strong.

November 3, 2010 at 11:26 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your Bear problems. And we all want others to see our kids as the golden little nuggets that they are!Thank goodness most children have somebody to champion them!

Your bear is lucky to have you!

November 3, 2010 at 11:31 AM  
Blogger chele said...

You and your little Bear are in my prayers.

November 3, 2010 at 11:31 AM  
Blogger Secret Mom Thoughts said...

Love the new blog design. Sorry to hear about Bear's lead poisoning. He is lucky you kept pushing for answers. I'll pray for your family.

November 3, 2010 at 11:32 AM  
Blogger Cari said...

I'm so sorry :(

I'm sorry for Bear, for your family, and I'm sorry you've been called a sellout. That's such a shame.

love your new design though :)

November 3, 2010 at 11:58 AM  
Blogger Jenn said...

Thank you for sharing this ... I know how difficult it was, on so many levels. I don't know what I can say that everyone else hasn't already ... and they're all 100% correct. You're a wonderful mom. You're so brave to fight to protect your son and your family. Please know that you have so much love, support, and tons of prayers lifting you up. We're all here for you.

I do have a question - not sure if you can answer it, but as a paranoid mama myself, I would appreciate knowing what to look out for. Aside from toys and paint, can you shed any light on what it was that affected Bear? Is there something that wouldn't naturally occur to me to keep my eye on? Thank you, and stay strong!

November 3, 2010 at 12:04 PM  
Blogger Helena said...

Oh shell, I am so sorry.

November 3, 2010 at 12:22 PM  
Blogger Beth P. said...

I'm so sorry :-( Don't EVER let anyone judge you for doing the best job you can for your kids!

Hope things get better for you.

November 3, 2010 at 12:30 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

oh my, I am actually in tears reading this. I am so sorry that your family has to go through this. Bear is a wonderful child and his condition doesn't define him. I am praying for your guys. You are a strong mommy and in no way a sell out. Praying for you dear friend

November 3, 2010 at 12:48 PM  
Blogger Heide said...


November 3, 2010 at 12:49 PM  
Anonymous Betty said...

I am so sorry you have to deal with this. Praying that in the end you win the war on this and help to bring a lot of awareness to everyone the need to be aware of the lead risks.

November 3, 2010 at 12:53 PM  
Blogger Alexandra said...

Shell, this is a lot to carry inside, and not be able to talk about b/c of lawsuits.

I hope you feel even a bit better at being able to say something bout Bear.

It's heartbreaking, And I'm so sorry for you and your family and Bear, b/c of what this guy did.

I would be so angry, as yu are.

I'm so sorry.

November 3, 2010 at 12:53 PM  
Blogger Goodnight moon said...

WTHeck! I am sitting here crying my eyes out! That really touched me and I wish I could come through my computer screen right now and give you a big fat hug! You are seriously one strong momma! You should be proud of yourself for knowing that something was "off" with Bear...and continueing to fight for testing to find out what was wrong with him! And for packing up the little things that you did, leaving the rest behind and moving away from that poisonous house/job/city. To build a new and healthy life for your family and keeping a happy face infront of your children is amazing!

You my friend have an amazing courage! Be proud of yourself!

Will he ever have normal levels again? Or is that something that you just have to sit around and wait to find out? I can NOT imagine!!! To have a healthy son, and then one day find out he has lead poisoning is out of the world!

I'm thinking and praying for Bear...and YOU, especially for having to go to court. I am not a sue happy kind of person either....but THIS...is worthy of it!


BTW...love the new layout! I've been waiting to do something with mine too...but not sure what yet?!?

November 3, 2010 at 12:54 PM  
Blogger Lothiriel said...

Aaawwwww... Im in tears.
I know you can't share details, but im a bit paranoid here, can you tell me a little of what to look for? I guess i can google it.

Im so sorry your little Bear is going through this. Shame on whoever called u a sellout.
And your new design is very cool.
I can imagine how hard this was for u to share, so thank you for it.

November 3, 2010 at 1:08 PM  
Blogger Truthful Mommy said...

First of all, HUGE HUGS TO YOU! My prayers are with you and your family. YOu are an amazing mom for insisting they keep searching until they figured it out,for moving your whole family to eliminate danger, for loving your son so much, for doing what ever needs to be done to get your kids what they need.God bless.

November 3, 2010 at 1:13 PM  
Blogger Tracie Nall said...

A sellout?? That is total rubbish! You do reviews (most bloggers do) but you also write. You write funny. You write serious. You write out of your heart. You are the least sell-out blogger ever.

It makes me angry to think that someone would call you that or try to make you feel guilty for using this blog that you and you alone have worked hard to create, grow, and upkeep to also bless your family.

Now that all of that is out of the way....I will not ask you any questions, because I don't want you to feel pressured to release more info than you should. Because I want you to win! For Bear's sake. Because if there is someone out there who contributed to his medical condition through their gross negligence, then they should have to pay, to do everything possible to make things right, to cover medical expenses.

You are a brave mommy for uprooting your family and starting over. When my mom was little, her family lived in Canada, and they were told if they didn't move to AZ, she would die within the year due to her extreme asthma and allergies. They had to leave so much behind and start over completely with no family for support or friends, or job prospects. That is so scary...but because they did that, I have a mom (who is pretty much asthma and allergy free today except for small things) and I am here. What you have done and sacrificed for your son is huge...and because of you he has a second chance at life. A life lived fully. I will be praying for all of you.

And...because this comment isn't quite long enough-ha! I love your new design. It is awesome!!

November 3, 2010 at 1:13 PM  
Blogger Joy Taylor said...

I feel what you are going thru.

P.S. I like the new layout!

November 3, 2010 at 1:31 PM  
Blogger Andrea said...

Shell, as always, thank you for pouring YOUR heart out and opening the door for all of us to do the same. I'm sorry you're struggling through so much with Bear. I hope that the answers will come and with them the strength that you, as parents and a family will need to continue on the getting him better journey. Many hugs and much love to you, Mama.

As for the sellout comments, WTF? Seriously? People do what they need to do and WANT to do. Blogs are OUR space. We'll pick and choose what is and isn't appropriate for us to talk about, post about, review, etc. and it's OUR space and our choice. You do what you need to for you and yours. Much love.

November 3, 2010 at 1:33 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You are a wonderful, amazing, strong mother!! Bear is lucky to have you and you to have him...We can never sell out when it comes to parenting our children..loving them, giving them the best.

All of my prayers to Bear and to your impending law suit. I hope you guys kick ass..not that it will change the outcome...but still yet.

Much love to you for being so strong and bringing awareness to lead poisoning.

(Love your new design!)

November 3, 2010 at 2:00 PM  
Blogger Liz Mays said...

I'm glad you were proactive and moved far away from the environment causing him harm. I hope his lead levels continue to drop quickly and that the effects are minimized or even better, eliminated! Hang in there, sweetie!

Site is cute!

November 3, 2010 at 2:19 PM  
Blogger Adrienne said...

I love the new design and I am praying to for God to heal bear and to help your family may God lift some of your burdens and may he give you answers ....I am not a digger I don't need to know all of the details to know I need to pray for your family.

November 3, 2010 at 2:26 PM  
Blogger Joey Lynn Resciniti said...

There is truly nothing worse than having a sick child. I hope you get all the answers you're looking for and that those levels continue to drop.

November 3, 2010 at 2:42 PM  
Blogger The No Wonder Mom said...

Wow... While our stories are different, I can see so many parallels. Like you, my child is sick. It looked like one thing, but answers were only found after I insisted and pushed. We also moved and downsized our lives in order to keep my son healthy. My hope is to grow my blog like yours so I can be a "sellout" if that's what it's called. I can't work because my son requires too much, so I'm hoping to be able to make a little from my blog to help Hubby out and put it toward the mounding debt that is our son's medical bills. You are so strong for forging ahead and being the voice for Bear and loving your children enough to give up any and everything you had to ensure their safety and health. I believe you are what is called a "Warrior Mom."

November 3, 2010 at 2:46 PM  
Blogger Sugar Bear said...

We had a scare with our oldest when he was little. His levels were high for the first 7 months of his life...kept getting him tested, cleaning the house, toys, etc.
It's so scary.
I'm sad you have had it be so much more a reality.
Keep hanging on...this post really helps get the word out.
Thinking of you and Bear and the battle you fight every day.
Hopefully soon it will all be behind you.

November 3, 2010 at 2:49 PM  
Blogger One Photo said...

Shell I was totally unaware of the medical issues your son faces or any of what you have been through. You and your husband are wonderful parents to have made those changes and sacrifices to get your son to a healthy environment where he can recover. I hope he continues to do so.

November 3, 2010 at 2:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. I can't believe dh's ex boss. He should not get away with that. I am so glad that Bear is doing better and will be okay. I just can't imagine all you've gone through.

November 3, 2010 at 3:08 PM  
Blogger Joann Mannix said...

I felt sick reading your post. My heart breaks for you, girl. Know that we will keep you and your sweet boy in our prayers in this house, that those counts continue to drop and that any effects he has will not be permanent.

And don't let anybody call you a sell out! It's crazy that we're doing this for free in the first place. I think you're a smart, savvy blogger who does an incredible job with your blog and the products you choose to represent.

And your new blog look is beautiful.

November 3, 2010 at 3:12 PM  
Blogger Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? said...

Wow. I just can't believe that somebody would knowingly (well, it seems that way) leave it around for a kid. That is terrible.

I'm so glad to hear that his levels have dropped so much, and things seem to be improving.

November 3, 2010 at 3:13 PM  
Blogger Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? said...

PS...I didn't mean I thought you left it around....please don't think that's what I meant.

November 3, 2010 at 3:13 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

This is heartbreaking.

A friend of mine is going through this with her two children (one especially) and is also seeing a lot of improvement with the right diet, so that's good.

I will pray for Bear too.

November 3, 2010 at 3:32 PM  
Blogger Simoney said...

Oh Shell.
I don't cry eaily when reading posts, but this post seriously had me welling up.
My heart just goes out to you.
There's nothing else I can say.
I am so sorry for all that your family has had to go through and I hear in your words your grief and frustration.
Thankyou for pouring your heart out.
It's a precious thing. I wish I could send you a bunch of lead-free toys... Big hugs here from me.
And I would like to kick that person too... the one who judged you for the product reviews.Boo.

November 3, 2010 at 3:35 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

There is nothing else to say, other than I am praying for all of you, and wishing I could hug you in person.

November 3, 2010 at 3:42 PM  
Blogger Go Mommy said...

I love your new design by the way.

It is good that you stuck with your mommy instinks to look further into what was going on.

November 3, 2010 at 3:50 PM  
Blogger Cheryl said...


I'm so sorry to hear this about Bear and about what your family has gone through.

Also love the new design - what can I say, I love the beach!

As for the sellout thing...I've just started doing some giveaways and you know what? I don't feel guilty about it. I spend A LOT of time on my blog and others, and if I can make some money from it, than it helps justify all that time!

November 3, 2010 at 3:54 PM  
Blogger Mimi N said...

First of all, your site looks great. So sorry that you are going through this. My post seems so lame now. My first time participating.

I cannot believe you are having to deal with someone else's mistake. I hope and pray you are able to get it all sorted out. Right is right sometimes. Your frustration makes ME want to go punch your DH's old boss in the face.

Praying your son is able to get back to where his levels are at a regular level and that he shows more improvement in your new home. I'm sorry you had to start all over. Wasn't following you back then.

Blessings on your family,


November 3, 2010 at 4:06 PM  
Blogger Babes Mami said...

I'm sure this was really hard for you to write! I hope that his levels continue to drop and that you get what you deserve out of this battle that you are going through.

Loving the new design as well. :]

November 3, 2010 at 4:20 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Shell, I know how aweful it is to try and find the answers to what is "wrong" with our child. We are also etrenched in this labyrinth of medical problem solving, confusing outcomes, and unknown directions in which to turn for my kiddos. I have found a great support system with the SITS girls website and the "Spring Chickens" tribe within their membership groups. We are also now on BlogFrog if you want to find us there. We are a small group of wonderful women caring for our children with special needs.
Please join us! I highly recommend it!

November 3, 2010 at 4:37 PM  
Blogger Brie said...

I really do love the design!

You mention the boss and your anger with him though and I have to ask, did you husband work for a toy company that produced said lead-coated toys? :(

I hope you find Bear well soon, love.

November 3, 2010 at 4:48 PM  
Blogger bohomamasoul said...

The new blog design is fabulous! It suits you, and your amazing writing :) I don't even think that "I'm sorry" adequately expresses my feeling about this. And the fact that you WERE doing everything you could, and this happened because of someone else's negligence. THAT is a horrible tragedy in itself. But more than anything, I'm a mom and I know it must be excruciatingly painful, everyday, to see your little man sick. I will be praying for your Bear, and your family, and YOU. Thank you for being brave enough to come forward with this, and know that because of you, maybe someone else will see the same things in their own child. Maybe they'll gain the strength to keep going in their own fight. Know that this eloquently written post could be someone's saving grace, just what they needed to move on or keep going or see for the first time what is happening in their house. SO proud of your fortitude and strength. You are the mom we should all strive to be.

November 3, 2010 at 5:00 PM  
Blogger Farah Jasmine said...

**HUG** I'm so sorry about Bear! I can't imagine what it would be like and I hope I never have to know. Oh, and please punch the people calling you a sell out. You're doing what is right for you and your family and providing them with opportunities they might not otherwise have. HUG!!

November 3, 2010 at 5:07 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

I know I've been pretty mia lately, but I just want you to know how much this post touched my heart...my heart breaks for all that you all have had to endure--no family, no child should have to go through any of that.

(((hugs))) honey & sending you lots of love. xoxo

November 3, 2010 at 5:35 PM  
Blogger Natalie said...

Shell, wow...powerful stuff to share. Thank you for trusting us with your feelings.

Um, love the new design! When I hit my 1 year blogoversary, I'm going to redo my blog and move to WP. I have Frilly Coconut as my #1 choice to help me do it.

Also...what you mentioned about being a sell out...that is EXACTLY why I try to not judge books (or people) by their covers. You never know what people are dealing with behind closed doors. All of us who are your loyal readers love you and will always be here for you, and that's what's important, right?

November 3, 2010 at 6:08 PM  
Blogger Jessica said...

The new changes are sweet! Makes me wonder about asking for a package for a Christmas present.

*Hugs* for Bear. Good thing he has as awesome Mommy Bear! I'm always terrified of lead poisoning for my little people.

Gideon managed to stab himself with a pencil a few years ago and we never could get the tip out of his arm. I checked the spot again after reading your post and the skin has grown over it thicker so that you can barely see it so I know that it's not coming out without a sharp blade now. You've done more research than me. Is that something that should be keeping me up at night?

November 3, 2010 at 6:24 PM  
Anonymous Sili said...

You are in my thoughts and I will add you guys to our nightly prayers.

I always wonder what people are thinking when they stand in judgement. Someone told me the following line once (it was in relation to a sermon that her husband gives at his church): you know my glory but you don't know my story. I have a blog that I cannot finish at this point with that same name because it is true. People are so caught up in themselves and on their high horse that they sometimes forget that perhaps they may not know the entire story (even if they're reading our blogs). Thank you for sharing...

November 3, 2010 at 7:24 PM  
Blogger Lisa said...

I have big hugs for you and all 4 of your guys! I hAve always heard of lead poisoning but had no idea all of the bad things it could cause. Yall are in my prayers and I hope and pray his levels continue to drop big time.
As for being a sell out....I don't understand why someone would even throw that out there. Its your decision to do what you want on your blog. This person doesn't help you keep your blog up or take care of your family. Geez! That just makes me so mad...what's it to them? I say if you don't like it stay away. Grrr!

On the bb so can't see your design very well. Will check it out Friday. :)

November 3, 2010 at 7:56 PM  
Blogger Jen said...

Shell, you are amazing.

You have my love and support.

I hope that things continue to improve and someday, you can share the whole story.

You will all be in my thoughts and prayers.

November 3, 2010 at 8:11 PM  
Blogger Emmy said...

I cannot believe someone called you a sell out! I want to give them a good swift kick.

And in regards to the rest of the post I don't know what else to say other than I am so sorry.

November 3, 2010 at 8:14 PM  
Blogger Tiffany said...

You are an amazing, strong, courageous, willful mother and Bear is blessed to have you as his mother. Never for a moment should you doubt yourself or your actions. I understand having to keep details to a minimum.
We all make sacrifices in our lives for our children, but what you have done for the safety and health of your children goes beyond anything I have had to do.
You are a fighter and a champion for your family and never doubt it for a moment. I'm praying for you, for Bear and everyone involved. love you girl.
How could anyone be so inconsiderate of others and call you a sellout?? Really? I wish that other people would keep their opinions to themselves when they have NO IDEA of the situation. It really takes some nerve to run their mouth.

November 3, 2010 at 8:25 PM  
Blogger MommaKiss said...

shell, i'm cryin' over here. you're right, a mom will do anything for her child, and I'm SO glad you pushed for more tests. I'll say a prayer that your son is healed, too. Amazing post, friend. I can feel your pain :(

November 3, 2010 at 9:17 PM  
Blogger Erin said...

Oh honey, I am SO sorry. You are such a strong Mama and wife. I will keep you ALL in my prayers, for healing your son's body and your hearts.

Thank you for writing about this very important issue. You are so right about advocating for our kids. If we don't, who will??


November 3, 2010 at 9:28 PM  
Blogger Jayme said...

Oh Shell! You're such an amazing mother, I know you and your husband would do absolultely anything for your boys. And you know how I feel about reviews/giveaways, you are so not a sellout! You are a mom who does what you can to provide for your kids and still be home with them.

You know if you ever need anything, I'm just up the road as well!

Love the new look :)

November 3, 2010 at 11:27 PM  
Blogger mintifresh said...

Anyone that would call you a sellout is jealous they aren't doing! I say if you can, do it!

{{HUGS}} from across states to you and Bear and all you have gone through for him! I can't even imagine! And for the little guy to have this problem due to someone else's incompetence is appalling! Good for you for doing all you can for your little man!

Love the new design!:D

November 3, 2010 at 11:47 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Your Bear is so blessed to have you! Your blog is awesome. You are an awesome, smart & funny writer. You are willing to do anything for your children. I pray that those lead levels continue to drop and drop and drop...to nothing. Thank you for sharing your sweet boy with us.

November 4, 2010 at 12:30 AM  
Blogger shortmama said...

You are a very strong person for being persistent enough to know that something wasnt right. You know your son better than anyone...you knew that something wasnt right and you acted on it. I am so sorry that your family has had to go through this. I pray for your sons healing and for your continued strength.

Love the new look!

November 4, 2010 at 12:31 AM  
Blogger Tammy said...

First, I love the new look! It is so you!

Second, Bear has endured alot, your entire family has. But if for one second some said you were a sell out for doing reviews. I'd like to give them a piece of my mind. We do them to try new things, save money and help get by in a crappy economy.

I pray that Bear continues to have his levels drop...he has come a long way already girl! :) And he will continue getting better because of the caring mom you are!

Love ya girl!

November 4, 2010 at 1:33 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow, Shell. Thats just awful. I really had no idea that people still got lead poisoning. I am so sorry. I cant believe anyone would call you a sell out!! Thats crazy rude. Lots of bloggers do reviews and stuff, its FUN. And you actually have a reason for wanting to do them!! People suck. Im sorry.

Love the new look! Its fabulous! =)

November 4, 2010 at 2:23 AM  
Blogger The Random Blogette said...

Love the new design Shell!

So sorry about bear's illness. My heart just breaks for you. I have heard about lead poisoning before but I have never actually known someone who has been affected by it. I would like to say that doctors can be wrong. And they definitely can be. I pray that as bear's levels lower that the effects of this illness will be reversed. He sounds like such an amazing kid and I know that he is lucky to have such an amazing mom like you to take care of him.

And if someone thinks that you are a sellout because you do product reviews then I am a sellout too. If companies want to give me free things in order for a blog review I will. We do not have a lot of money either and even if we did if a company wants to give me something free I am all about it. I actually have some reviews and giveaways in the works!!

November 4, 2010 at 8:41 AM  
Blogger KLZ said...

They are lucky to have you for so very many reasons.

The new design looks great.

Have you reviewed Bucky Whoopsies?


If you haven't and want to I can give your name to the woman who contacted me about it. But maybe your kids are too old?

Big hug - you did a great job momma.

November 4, 2010 at 12:10 PM  
Blogger adrienzgirl said...

Shell, You are no sell out. PERIOD. Anyone who says otherwise is an ASS. There is no shame in any momma doing for her babies. The fact that someone would kick you for doing reviews just means they are jealous that you have been so fortunate and they have not. You still write every bit of the content that you did before doing reviews. I know that because I have been a follower from the beginning. Grrr....!!! Makes me mad. Furthermore, it's nobody's damned business why you do reviews. Don't read if you don't like it. Pretty freaking simple.

As for Bear? HUGS AND LOVE to you and your family. You are a brave Momma to pack it all up and walk away from friends, family and everything you owned for your baby!

LOVE the new streamlined design. Very beautiful.

November 4, 2010 at 1:16 PM  
Blogger Kir said...

no mom should ever have to write this kind of post and your love for your family and Bear is evident. I am tearing up thinking about how you feel about this.
Just know I am here, in your corner, if you need me. I'll be thinking of you and praying for those levels to drop, drop, drop.

the new design is amazing, it's gorgeous...as a "Summer girl" I just adore it.

November 4, 2010 at 1:34 PM  
Blogger Kristin said...

Love the new look!

I'm so sorry your family is going through this. I hope your little bear will continue to improve. Big hugs!

November 4, 2010 at 2:20 PM  
Blogger Connie said...

I had no idea that lead could do that to a baby.

Bear is lucky to have you fighting for him! I hope he gets better with time.

November 4, 2010 at 2:46 PM  
Blogger all.things.fadra said...

Shell - this may be my first official stopover I'm sorry to say. But I love what you do with pouring your heart out. And in doing so, you really touched mine. I can only imagine how many times in your head you must think if I only ... could have been different. If only I could go back in time. You are a testament to all of us to trust our mom instincts and I hope Bear gets better and better every day.

November 4, 2010 at 2:48 PM  
Blogger Karin Katherine said...

Sweet, Sweet friend I am praying for your son Bear!

November 4, 2010 at 3:13 PM  
Blogger jayayceeblog said...

Well, bless your heart and thank God you followed your instincts to push for answers. Hopefully things are on the upswing for your family and I hope you seriously kick some ass in your lawsuit. Sending prayers your way ... thanks for sharing!

November 4, 2010 at 4:22 PM  
Blogger AiringMyLaundry said...

First of all, I like your new look.

Second, this post made me tear up. You are a fabulous mother.

November 4, 2010 at 6:24 PM  
Anonymous Tanya said...

Your blog design is so cute! I'm so glad you came by my site today.It gave me the chance to come visit you and learn a little bit about you and your son's story. Thank you so much for sharing and I only wish the best for you and your son. This is not even close, but my youngest broke her leg when she was 4. Unfortunately she had complications due to the cast she recieved in the hospital and her leg will never be the same. I understand your frustrations and I hope things work out in your favor. And you are so not a sellout!! Have a super day-

November 4, 2010 at 7:38 PM  
Blogger Christina said...

Wow. Just wow. As the mom of a child that struggles with a chronic disease that is not always understood, I feel your pain. I want to cry and scream with you.

Bravo to you and your family for standing up and fighting. Your Bear is worth it. I am sending you best wishes and as much strength as I can. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and hug your bear as often as you can.

You can do it! XO

November 4, 2010 at 8:29 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh Shell.

I am so sorry that this has happened to your Bear and to your family.

Y'all are in my prayers.

November 4, 2010 at 10:10 PM  
Blogger Vanessa said...

I have tears in my eyes reading this -- tears that you have to go through this at all because of someone else's lies and misgivings, but also tears of joy that you've seen improvement. Shell, I will be praying for you and for Bear. I am so, so glad that you pressed until you found out exactly what was going on. I pray that things will just continue to improve, especially as you face the dealings with going to court. <3

November 4, 2010 at 10:22 PM  
Blogger The Mommy Mambo said...

Yes. I'm filled with questions I won't ask. But, my heart goes out to you with that helpless feeling.

Don't listen to what Docs speculate or what you read in the medical journals and studies. Miracles happen every day, even in this horribly trying time we live in...I think.
But then again sometimes you don't want the pep talk. Sometimes we just want to stew in our own juices because, though some will say "it could always be worse" and "look on the bright side" you just want to punch them in the mouth. Cause it could always be better, too, damnit!
I'm so sorry for your little guy. You are a strong, loving, dtermined mom who can do this, though I certainly wish you didn't have too.

November 4, 2010 at 10:30 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

I admire your strength in dealing with all this and not punching a jerk in the face. Virtual hugs to you and your bear.

November 5, 2010 at 3:02 AM  
Blogger For the Love of Naps - Sarah said...

You have amazing strength. You are your son's advocate and you are doing an amazing job at that. Glad things are getting better, but I wish you never had to go through it.

And ....you are not a sell out! At all!

November 5, 2010 at 8:16 AM  
Blogger Kelli said...

visiting from Mrs. 4444. strength to you and your family during this challenging time

November 5, 2010 at 11:13 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

Bless your heart. I'm sorry you and your family are going through this. You are doing the right thing and really the worth of one son is worth the loss of everything else isn't it. I hope that his levels continue to drop and that he doesn't suffer long term effects. Thank you for reminding us of this deadly condition.
Stopped by from Sits....

November 6, 2010 at 1:03 PM  
Blogger mypixieblog said...


Gosh, Shell. I know we haven't met, but I have so much love for you and wish there was something I could do to take some of that hurt away. You are a wonderful mommy and beautiful person, inside and out. That anyone would say anything to the contrary or call you a sell-out or whatever because of decisions you are making to ensure the safety and well-being of your children... well, it just angers me. You are such an inspiration to this community and I'm glad that you are speaking about your son's lead poisoning, I know that couldn't have been easy for you. You are all in my thoughts and prayers and please don't let the insensitive things people say get to you. All the comments here should remind you of what a spectacular person you are and how much you really are loved.

November 6, 2010 at 1:16 PM  
Blogger Melinda said...

I am so, so sorry about my son. My heart really goes out to you because, as I think you know, my son has a chronic illness (cystic fibrosis) ... I know the stress and worry that brings ... the prayers you pray for healing. I admire you and your husband greatly for the extraordinary steps you have taken to help your son. I will definitely keep him and your family in my prayers, Michelle.

November 6, 2010 at 2:00 PM  
Blogger Unknown said...

I love the new look. Sorry I've been so MIA lately. Life has been getting in the way. You know how that is.

Thank you for sharing Bear's story. I've heard about lead poisoning, but never knew much about it.

November 6, 2010 at 2:09 PM  
Blogger Mrs4444 said...

I can't think of anything to say that would help. Just know that you are in my prayers, Shell...

November 6, 2010 at 10:21 PM  
Blogger Lourie said...

A sell out? Really? People just don't have a clue sometimes. Your post really touched me SHell. I am so glad I read it. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

November 6, 2010 at 10:46 PM  
Blogger Kerri said...

As painful as it is to write, I'm sure there is a part of you that feels good to get it off your chest. Hoping all goes well with Bear!

Raising Three Savvy Ladies - a SITStah

November 6, 2010 at 11:48 PM  
Anonymous Emily said...

Your mommy instincts were in full swing in getting Bear the help he needs. Wishing you all strength

November 7, 2010 at 1:48 AM  
Anonymous Emily said...

Your mommy instincts were in full swing in getting Bear the help he needs. Wishing you all strength

November 7, 2010 at 1:49 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Props to you for standing up for Bear, knowing what the right thing to do. Also, I applaud your sharing. We have all had the flu around here so I am just now getting to visit my fav blogs. I LOVE your new design!!!!

November 7, 2010 at 10:48 PM  
Blogger Expats Again said...

You and your family are very strong facing this struggle. Hang in there and never give up, My thoughts and prayers are with you. As far as others' opinions of what you should or should not do, ignore them all. Focus on your son as you have been doing so splendidly.

November 10, 2010 at 9:44 AM  
Blogger RN Mama said...

Wow, Shell. You are an amazing mother, no matter what. Thank you for writing about this, in all honesty, I've heard about lead poisoning, but I know nothing about it. That probably sounds horrible, as a mother, and a nurse.

Keep fighting for your child, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. You are a mother, and you know your child better than anyone. Your son is so lucky to have such wonderful parents!

November 10, 2010 at 10:19 PM  
Blogger Kim of Mo Betta said...

How awful that you and your family have to go through this! I hope that your son continues to improve as the lead levels decrease.

November 14, 2010 at 5:57 PM  
Anonymous Mama Kat said...

Great post Shell, thank you for sharing it. And thank you for making us ALL more aware of our environment and the toxins we might not realize exist in it. I'm so sorry you have to hurt for your boy, but relieved you got him out of there in time!

December 13, 2010 at 9:39 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

First of all, I am sorry that Bear has to suffer through this, I had pediatrics this semester so we learned about lead poisioning...but was that enough? As a future member of the medical profession, this post first breaks my heart but then makes me very angry. Why oh why can't the medical profession just listen to a mom's intuition. There's something there...we should know that by know. Maybe that's the problem though, we "know" too much. I am praying for you guys.

December 31, 2010 at 8:48 AM  
Blogger Renegades said...

Opening up your self like this makes you so real and it shows the loving and dedicated mother you are. I can see why you picked this post for one of the 2010.

December 31, 2010 at 12:10 PM  
Anonymous Jessica said...

I am heartbroken for you - your poor Bear - Bless you both and now I'm hooked...gotta keep reading.

April 19, 2011 at 6:39 PM  
Anonymous Steph said...

How's the lawsuit going? I would love an update!!!

July 5, 2011 at 5:00 PM  

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